Motivation?

I don't really have a lot to say today, but I wanted to say something, so here goes...

Friday is our first home football game, and I'm more than a little concerned. 

I'm not sure what it is this year, but it's just not coming together.  The students don't know their sets on the field, they don't know when they're supposed to move and when they're not, and the music isn't sounding as good as it was a few days ago.

I wish I knew what could make a difference.

I got pretty upset and disgusted at Tuesday's practice, and told the band that if they didn't shape up, they'd embarrass themselves on Friday.  I told them that they're not living up to the standards of the BMHS marching band. 

I think this may have lit a fire under some of them, as they've all called extra practices for today and tomorrow.  It goes back to what I tell my leaders--you can't MAKE students want to do better, they have to want to themselves.  No one can do it for you.  This is the most frustrating thing about being an educator.

I just don't want to put a "half-baked" product out there Friday.  It's just not acceptable for me. 

Meanwhile, I'm dialysis catheter free for today.  Not that it feels much different, as it's become such a part of me the past seven months.  It does feel weird to look down and not see tubes hanging out of my chest.  I wish I didn't have to go back tomorrow to get a new one put in.  If all goes as plan, I should only have 23 more dialysis treatments...but who's counting? :)

I just found out that I have a great sub that can take over while I'm out.  This is SUCH a relief!  I was really worried about what was going to happen while I was gone, as the only available music sub was asked not to come back last year.  I'm glad that I have someone I know I can count on.